My Dear Son,
You are turning two :)
My little boy. Just yesterday you were swaddling in my arms, today you are my
friend, my buddy who gives me high five, who runs like a penguin, jumps on me, sing
to me the sweetest melody. Wow! what a sweet gift you are from Allah.
Whenever you stumble upon this blog, I want
you to know that I love you very much. You see mothers are little crazy when it
comes to their kid. Just in a matter of second they jump through their most
difficult journey, they cover the infinity in a matter of seconds and they become
a new person, starting a life they never thought can be lived.
This world is a crazy place I tell you. As much as you give
us the happiness, there is this clock tickling right behind me, chasing me, asking
me to see the world from every angle. And then I do.
I do this because I know that this world may not be a very
nice place to live in. Whenever I look at you, I want you to become the person I
couldn’t become. It doesn’t mean I am not happy about my achievements but you
know what, by the time you realize your potentials, things have gone fast
forward and then there is a race which knocks you down so many times before you
get up.
But you give me strength; you define meaning of this life to
me. It’s scary and satisfying.
Just look at me I am a daughter, I am a mom, I am a wife, a
daughter in law. And this life is just
like a time travel device. When I spend time with you I move back and forth in time,
basking in the glorious childhood memory, I am a child there at the same time a
parent and I realize things that my parents did for me, from their perspective. And I realize how
important it is to treat them nicely. So you have shown me the time I couldn’t feel
anymore, the time which was stacked down in the chamber of secrets in my mind
When you grow up a
little more, you would see there is no balance is this world. There are classes
and differences, there are divisions and there are kids just like you begging
on the roads, Kids who are injured in war, adults in miserable condition and
what not. And you will see pictures and images that might make your heart thump
a little stronger.
You might think that there is injustice in blessings too. You
might be blessed with a lot of things while the other kid next to you isn’t and
vice versa. And this whole thing might confuse you. It did confuse me. It makes
me go crazy when people share images of kids being hurt. I always wonder oh God
you had all the powers, you could have stopped this massacre.
I hate the fact kids beg on streets and sometimes we don’t help
them because we think we are helping them build their regime. We are selfish to
be honest.
How many times I go out of the way to help people? I can
count on fingers.
But my son when you
grow up, sort out your life. There are a
couple of lesson you need to read every day. This world has attractions of
every kind. Good and bad. You may choose
good or bad according to your perception but at the end of the day you should be
peaceful. You should be able to share the truth with yourself. You should be able to sleep on your own and
peacefully. You can lie to the world but
not to yourself. Most of the times we know answers, we run away from them.
You can’t do perfect in this world. Just do your best. Make best
use of everything. You may not get answer of everything but your heart is your
mirror. Look into it every day, every night before sleeping and you would know what
kind of person you have become.
Be kind. Kindness would never disappoint you, nor the
honesty. Follow them and you will be happy that you made right choice in your
life.
I just realized how much I can share with you but not here and
not today.
I wish you a life lived to the fullest.
Much Love,
Only Yours
Mama.
