Time and Tide waits for none, What you are waiting for ?

That night I kept holding my last breath to see if I will have to see it for once more but ‘Wait’ till I was given more breath and only thing I fell short…. No fell shot dead was of an 'unknown feeling'.

An unknown feeling hmmm its cloudy outside and I … I dearly want to have some few droplets falling straight on my face when I gaze at the beautiful sky outside; which is homogeneous right now. I wait and went outside again and something unknown hits me --- silence fell, night fell and when this droplet might fell? Aaargh…

* I am rubbing my hand, tapping my foot:Blink...Blink then tring…tring ran towards the phone:
hey I was waiting for your call past 2 hours and you  ...’Oh sorry I will let you talk to her excuse me’.
 An unknown mystifying rather miserable feeling portraying the grim picture and your wrinkles quite visible on forehead, face tweaked as if clock suddenly struck 12 on you rather than in its own origin. You Wait!

** Driver says ‘I am 5 minutes away from your home and be ready’: countdown begins you run to make a lunch; press your dress; time is running … you run for life, your knee had a bad accident with the corner of your bed: ‘OUCH’ ! elbow beguiles to hit you when it effects the most and here it hits the side wall and yeah you feel your whole arm stirred up to the core… countdown begins 

5. Catch your bag

4. Take a Sip of coffee 

3. Go get your lunch box

2. Peep outside the balcony I still have time in hand and ….

1. Give a warm hug to a kid at home … Run... Times up

‘Tring tring’ I am stuck in a bad traffic jam will be there soon.

Ahhh yeah you have all objects in front of you which one you would like to hit on first?

You wait till your lipstick needs a refresher.

*** Every day I have a look at her face makes me go drifted towards her; for she an ethereal creature and every time I get my senses back after an awe-struck and goggling the dictionary to give her a new name, I end up  asking her ‘how’s the weather outside?’ Yeah you got it right ‘I wait’.

**** Every night in my dreams I feel like killing him/her. I can’t have a sound sleep; I hate and I know I won’t be able to sleep, here I go take sleeping pills, you ruined my life; I am just getting up ; here I go …wait… no go …..

 And when you are able to move you already have had a 5 hours steady sleep. Good morning!

***** Every morning at 8 I reach bus stop to be the first one getting on … first bus arrives; flooded with people few are dropped outside; and when you try to place your first foot on stand, it slips away .Wait for the next to arrive soon which is no less than um mm 9nish!

Oh well I am waiting for the droplet to fall ‘straight’ on my face and what you are waiting for?

Who says where the road goes? Where the day flows? Only Time

So I convinced myself finally to see where my sojourn is taking me and last few days were like a tough grinding ride bubbling up anger, peer pressure, some job related things and decision etc etc I wanted that time to end soon and when it’s over I need time again to fit myself in my old routine. There are many things going in head and I need to clear them as soon as possible as growing up is not as easy as it may seem especially to all those who are looking up to you.

There is something really special about our life… ‘Observations’ like a little cute school girl with pony at the top of her head and tightly as she clings at the back of her father who at every turn makes sure that her daughter is safe and sound on his bike.

And when they reach at school gate, she innocently asks for money and her father probing his pocket to see what he can offer but no matter what are the circumstances he always does that.

Right now I feel nostalgic: when I was a kid I always used to follow my siblings or either move out alone because they thought I am fragile and they can’t include me in their tough games so my task was to clap, and when game is over my brother would call me up to play few things with me.

Today I feel so much love for my family, and I am touched the way they have helped me through always. I am going to be 24 next month and every time my mother thought I am tired she will come near my bed to see if I have complete cover on me and then I will see her going back, shutting the door slightly. My brother once jumped into the rails while one of the trains dramatically coming towards us he dropped himself over the ground fetching my shoe that somehow I dipped. I thank god million times that nothing bad happened that day.  

Few days back I was so tired and agitated that suddenly a message brought so many smiles to my face. My niece sent me a stupid message which was some fill in the blanks; it went like I …. You. So in order to tell her that I read your messages, I wrote her back ‘I miss you’ and asked her to fill back for me and she wrote back ‘I love you’. It blew off all my fermentation and I was chirping again =)

May be you need to say same to some of your loved ones to bring smiles on their face..Don’t miss that.

As a child I used to read a lot and this somehow depreciated me of listening, a statement I read in Urdu subject still hovers my mind and I believe it to be so true ----- it goes like that ‘it’s easy to put your god behind your necessities’ and today people do that quite frequently including me.

My sojourn is stuck for a while I need to free it soon.

Hope you all are having a nice healthy week =)