Tuesday, November 27, 2012

all those days watching from the windows

Winters are approaching slowly but surely.I start my day in hustle like always; always forgetting things, always taking notes. My life now a days seems to be preparing something for me ahead. Its busy but keeping me busy always. Winds started to smack me around my neck so I swapped my scarf to protect it and focus.

I walk slowly across the streets observing and making plans. For brevity sake I don’t react much. I keep it all low. But sometimes as if there is a need. As I move forwards there is something holding me back and I feel responsible as if I could have protected, could have saved, could have … is poisonous. It makes you forget that master planner works more apace than my futile imagination and whatsoever keeps my mind busy.

These days I am making peace with myself and bring forth positive outlook towards everything. I see my active bones got rusty for some very shadowy reasons. I had goals, creativity that amused me but for some odd reason I was on break. There are only few people in this world who can understand you even without asking much, just looking deep into your eyes. There are few magicians in this world they don’t hold you tight they let you go freely. But I felt boundaries across me and have temptation to be at another side. I wanted to be safe but I couldn't save much. Its not that i lost something but I didn't gain wisdom to fight well.

I am taking in positive energies. We have got one life how can we spend it without any achievement whether it is winning someone’s heart, effective career or social work.

I thought of deleting my Blog but this can be a for no reason step for me. May be I don’t need to broadcast my thoughts any more and break all connection that may lead to abrasion.

I am just trying to take participation rather than to be a spectator.

I was listening to tangled ‘All those days’. My love for this cannot go down J

It depicts part of my personality not fairy tales but looking beyond walls. Though I would like to land back where I wanted to or where I belong to.  

What is keeping you busy these days, Have you gone through similar state? 


  1. hmm..more or less...Yes..I can relate to everything you wrote here...and I am also in a mood to delete my blog...

  2. I think we all have blocks between us and the best version of ourselves, whether it's shyness, insecurity, anxiety, whether it's a physical block, and the story of a person overcoming that block to their best self. It's truly inspiring because I think all of us are engaged in that every day. 
     So relax and enjoy. Life is onetime measure and neither allow repetitions of extreme happiness nor grief.

  3. Humaira,

    Life shows so many hues that one at times wonders what God has in mind. Only way to keep sanity and peace of mind is to think positive and take whatever life throws at one with positive acceptance. It is also good to pen down thought as that gives many answers we may be looking for. Never think of leaving this space.

    Take care

  4. I think overcoming anxiety will do the trick!
    Have a good day!

  5. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. - Mark Twain

  6. Yours has been a journey of self actualisation and discovering the vicissitudes of life; a journey which has touched thousands of lives through your feverish enthusiasm and poignant words. You will get all that you aim for in your life if you maintain that positive outlook on life that should define you. Long may your sojourn continue